aye.
the holidays are here at last!
2nd day of my holiday and i am currently just slacking around at home.
pondering on the troubles my family are facing.
figuring out a solution for each and every problem.
damn, my mind is fully packed.

as iylia said to me and i forgot some words but let me rephrase it.
he said to take it easy and have more patience as the person who made wrong will be punish by him(Allah) at the end of the life.
very true, but i just cant handle the fact and sincerely speaking i am a hot tempered guy who react to violence once irritated or angered.
but i'll take this as a challenge from him.
to face it with patience.
am i glad to have great friends by my side for my support.

and i dint regret having a punching bag to vent my anger out.
sweat and tiredness made me cool down.

to my sis,
your old enough.
tell u frankly i ONCE had respect for you,
even love you but i wont show it because i am who i am.
but all is lost.
running away from this problem aint making u stronger.
u dont need us no more?
so u've forgotten your roots then?
just for your info,
u can forget totally bout us,
but we wont forget you.

well thats enough.
till here.
how i wished i dint make the stupid mistake of trusting my own sister.

peace im out

things are effed up.
solutions are buffed up.
time is the essence.
like how this is a lesson.

wont go into detail of wad happen here.
too personal to be posted.

anyway the official video of Da Sho Case 7 is up.




haha frankly speaking im damn proud of them.
they did good knuhmean.
aite till here.

peace im out

whuddup?
here to update whats been happenin.
warning: this might be a long post so do take note.

if u wernt aware, i just came back from camp this morning.
and i was totally shagged.
haha the dance nite was truly awesome.
thx to the DJs who made this happened.

ok lets rewind way back to thursday.
it was a bad week for me.
so after i went to sim lim to look for a laptop,
i went home with dad n i slept.
went into deep sleep so people who were trying to reach me cant reach me.
and i can tell that rahmat was totally pissed because i dint pick up the phone.
no diss and such i just want u to know that i was sleeping, not avoiding or anything.
as u know when i sleep i do not pick up the phone,
but i'l get back as soon as i wake up or for that day after i bath and do prayers.
its all cool for me bro, so hope there wont be any misunderstanding.

friday was the starting of the camp day.
cant join in with the guys as i were busy with the camp stuffs.
sry dudes.
but the day after which is saturday,
was the big day.
even though we dint win the sho case 7 we won a whole lot of different things.
we earned respect, courage and experiance.
so when the next time comes,
we'll be better and stronger than ever.
after the competition we went and ate at Mac D.
jokes were cracked and stuffs as usual.
to tell u the truth i was glad.
glad that everyone was there.
i appriciate each and everyone who came down.

so after eating we split up,
i went to the party and the rest headed home.
the party was awesome as stated above.
n i was kinda high and confused.
i tot it was already 2 when it was only 12am.
hahaha!
after party we slacked and i played poker.
texas hold'em poker!
haha it was uber fun.
we bet using sweets and pandan cakes. XD
shanan was the poker king(he won alot of the rounds) and calista was the poker queen(even though she won just 1 round).
i was labeled as the bluff face guy too.
we plaeyed till 5 or 6am and slept.
woke up with drawings on my hand arnd 9am.
the guys used marker and drew on my hand n i totally dint feel it.
haha damn u guys!
wash up, debrief, clean up the place and went home.

reached home.
put bags on the floor.
lay on the comfort of my bed.
went to lalaland till 5pm when my pops called my hp.

note: this is personal n if possible please do not comment on it. ty.

now im pissed.
not at anyone else.
but with my sis.
if u are reading this.
yes im totally pissed with u.
u said i shldnt have placed the deposit on the laptop.
but did u even ask me when u put the deposit on the laptop at courts when u lost the laptop?
did u even try to tell me the situation when u lost the laptop?
did u think it was a good idea to stay outside with him the whole night when u lost the laptop?
im having doubts now.
is that f-ing guy even doin any good now?
i may not know him or wad but im totally pissed with him also.
since ibu said he's helping us with the laptop i kept my f-ing mouth shut.
but now ibu and ayah is franticly looking for a solution for the problem u created.
even if he's helping us shouldnt he even atleast asked for comformation from us for the laptop?
is that hard after he dint contact u for the whole freaking day?
dont u feel abit that u are being played?
shessh.
i donno.
now i dont give a damn.
what else can i say.
and tell ibu not to bother and get me a laptop for my tests.
i'll find a way myself.
i'll solve this fucking problem u created.
to fuck with the problem.
to tell u the truth, this problem could be solved if u INFORMED ME EARLIER.
yes i would have been mad, but atleast we COULD HAVE worked things out properly.

peace im out