wassup.

time/date check: 7.55pm/24-06-2009.

acheivement check: nothing.

ok its wednesday today.

and on monday i went to chalet.

it was a last min call up but most of the class came down.

i repeat MOST.

there were some who said they would come but ended dint come.

well at least now i know who to ask and not to ask if im gonna hold another chalet.

we ton the whole night cycling, walking, bowling and playing cards.

at around 5 most of us were dead.

but we went near the beach to see the sunrise.

stupid jokes were made here and there.

but seeing the sunrise really brings up my spirit.

even though the sunrise was not perfect,

it sure is for my first time.

thanks wilson for holding the last min chalet.

and the rest who CAME, at least the made an effort.

thanks the guys who stayed over also.

ok now to some more serious matter.

i havent study for my test which is on next week.

school is opening soon but because of h1n1 im hoping that holiday will be extended.

who dosnt rite??

i wrote some new lines which have meaning to myself.

check it out:

in one corner of my eye

life's a portrayal of hell

the feeling of being tied

deep inside an endless well

but hanging around here

it's got me thinking

of how to overcome fear

that's what I'm scheming

simple but true to me.

im hustling off.

hit me on my cell if needed.

peace im out

wassup?

been awhile since i blog.

nothing much to update.

and nothing much happen lately.

im burning off my holidays just like burning paper.

wasted more than 1weeks of holiday now.

i admit i have done nothing.

nothing at all.

Music wise, physical training wise and passion wise.

as iylia said i dont put in any effort at all.

yea true, very true.

i cant go out much now.

i dont have much freedom like i used to cause there's one less person in the house.

so that made me in charge of the house when my parents are working.

hope you guys understand.

this is not the usual situation of me being lazy.

hope ya'll know that.

its not like im complaining or what.

its just that im not used to do these things.

thus im quite frustrated myself.

usually when trouble comes, it always come to me.

people gave me responsibility and i passed it to the person whom i thought was responsible.

in the end the person was not responsible and i got the blame.

so put the blame on me.

u can put the blame on me.

mom's freaking out and being stress.

and she thinks that not talking to me is a good idea.

well its up to her.

even if she got new information she wont share it.

she thought i am the same as her.

dont catogerize me with that brainless idiot.

FUCK IT.

peace im out

Well I know we just met yesterday
But things they look so right
Cause you always know just what to say
And what is on my mind
Girl I feel I need a special way
To ask you to be mine
But I don't know when's the perfect day
Or what's the perfect time

Babe you leave me confused
Don't know if I should let you know or wait it out girl
Wish I knew just what to do
I'm so confused

So girl what you wanna see?
Wanna see me get down on my knees?
Wanna hear me beg you baby please?
Wanna see me crying for mercy?
Oh girl I wish I knew your world
I think i'm losing my head over you girl

Well someone once told me that you'll end up lonely
Don't let love ever pass you by
Cuz I've seen it happen to people
That mattered to me with my very own eyes
Maybe they were mistaken
And I should be waiting, for you to show me your sign
Or should I just let you know, that if I let you go
I'd wonder the rest of my life

note: lyrics of raghav-so confused

aye wassup!

hmm..

ok now i forgot what to blog..

dammit..

just finish playing game so im currently bored..

IT show fair is on today!

haha i know im quite slow but at least i know.

somehow im kinda envious bout the it show.

i have no laptop.

the laptop that was lend to me is gone.

left in a dire situation.

now cant even get a proper laptop.

dammit.

now i my mood to blog have been washed away.

im hustling off.

peace im out

aye.
the holidays are here at last!
2nd day of my holiday and i am currently just slacking around at home.
pondering on the troubles my family are facing.
figuring out a solution for each and every problem.
damn, my mind is fully packed.

as iylia said to me and i forgot some words but let me rephrase it.
he said to take it easy and have more patience as the person who made wrong will be punish by him(Allah) at the end of the life.
very true, but i just cant handle the fact and sincerely speaking i am a hot tempered guy who react to violence once irritated or angered.
but i'll take this as a challenge from him.
to face it with patience.
am i glad to have great friends by my side for my support.

and i dint regret having a punching bag to vent my anger out.
sweat and tiredness made me cool down.

to my sis,
your old enough.
tell u frankly i ONCE had respect for you,
even love you but i wont show it because i am who i am.
but all is lost.
running away from this problem aint making u stronger.
u dont need us no more?
so u've forgotten your roots then?
just for your info,
u can forget totally bout us,
but we wont forget you.

well thats enough.
till here.
how i wished i dint make the stupid mistake of trusting my own sister.

peace im out

things are effed up.
solutions are buffed up.
time is the essence.
like how this is a lesson.

wont go into detail of wad happen here.
too personal to be posted.

anyway the official video of Da Sho Case 7 is up.




haha frankly speaking im damn proud of them.
they did good knuhmean.
aite till here.

peace im out

whuddup?
here to update whats been happenin.
warning: this might be a long post so do take note.

if u wernt aware, i just came back from camp this morning.
and i was totally shagged.
haha the dance nite was truly awesome.
thx to the DJs who made this happened.

ok lets rewind way back to thursday.
it was a bad week for me.
so after i went to sim lim to look for a laptop,
i went home with dad n i slept.
went into deep sleep so people who were trying to reach me cant reach me.
and i can tell that rahmat was totally pissed because i dint pick up the phone.
no diss and such i just want u to know that i was sleeping, not avoiding or anything.
as u know when i sleep i do not pick up the phone,
but i'l get back as soon as i wake up or for that day after i bath and do prayers.
its all cool for me bro, so hope there wont be any misunderstanding.

friday was the starting of the camp day.
cant join in with the guys as i were busy with the camp stuffs.
sry dudes.
but the day after which is saturday,
was the big day.
even though we dint win the sho case 7 we won a whole lot of different things.
we earned respect, courage and experiance.
so when the next time comes,
we'll be better and stronger than ever.
after the competition we went and ate at Mac D.
jokes were cracked and stuffs as usual.
to tell u the truth i was glad.
glad that everyone was there.
i appriciate each and everyone who came down.

so after eating we split up,
i went to the party and the rest headed home.
the party was awesome as stated above.
n i was kinda high and confused.
i tot it was already 2 when it was only 12am.
hahaha!
after party we slacked and i played poker.
texas hold'em poker!
haha it was uber fun.
we bet using sweets and pandan cakes. XD
shanan was the poker king(he won alot of the rounds) and calista was the poker queen(even though she won just 1 round).
i was labeled as the bluff face guy too.
we plaeyed till 5 or 6am and slept.
woke up with drawings on my hand arnd 9am.
the guys used marker and drew on my hand n i totally dint feel it.
haha damn u guys!
wash up, debrief, clean up the place and went home.

reached home.
put bags on the floor.
lay on the comfort of my bed.
went to lalaland till 5pm when my pops called my hp.

note: this is personal n if possible please do not comment on it. ty.

now im pissed.
not at anyone else.
but with my sis.
if u are reading this.
yes im totally pissed with u.
u said i shldnt have placed the deposit on the laptop.
but did u even ask me when u put the deposit on the laptop at courts when u lost the laptop?
did u even try to tell me the situation when u lost the laptop?
did u think it was a good idea to stay outside with him the whole night when u lost the laptop?
im having doubts now.
is that f-ing guy even doin any good now?
i may not know him or wad but im totally pissed with him also.
since ibu said he's helping us with the laptop i kept my f-ing mouth shut.
but now ibu and ayah is franticly looking for a solution for the problem u created.
even if he's helping us shouldnt he even atleast asked for comformation from us for the laptop?
is that hard after he dint contact u for the whole freaking day?
dont u feel abit that u are being played?
shessh.
i donno.
now i dont give a damn.
what else can i say.
and tell ibu not to bother and get me a laptop for my tests.
i'll find a way myself.
i'll solve this fucking problem u created.
to fuck with the problem.
to tell u the truth, this problem could be solved if u INFORMED ME EARLIER.
yes i would have been mad, but atleast we COULD HAVE worked things out properly.

peace im out